I really do not like this time of year. I have been like that sense 1969 when my grandpa died on Christmas day. It seems like that all the really upsetting and depressing things come at the end of the year. Today was no execption. I got up to some a conflict with a coupld friends then i had to go get a second mameogramn. I now need to get a biopsy on 3 places, and the conflict from the morning seems to be still going on. My family is most likely not going to have a gathering this Christmas, and this all comes at tmes in December. That is why I try to have all my Christmas shopping done before the depression hits. I kinda feel like Charlie Brown I should be happy but I do not feel it.
I wish I was happy but I am not. My neighbor decorated our whole unit really lovely and even that does not lift my spirits. I should be ok after the first of the year MAYBE if that biopsy comes out negative.