Have you ever had one of those days that startd at the bottom, and then digs a hole? That was the kind of day I had yesterday and the reason I am siting here all alone at nearly 4 am writing a blog. I can not sleep. The day started out kind of ok. I was up early and ready to help a friend with her computer. We called microsoft for help and found out it is all on line now and totally pointless. What ever happened to the days of real people on the other end of the phone?
While I was working on the computer, a friend pmed me and apparently got mad ,because I did not drop what i was doing right that very minute to talk to them.
It stormed here nearly all day, so after working on the computer I tried to take a nap, but was interupted by one of those automated phone things wanting to talk to me about my car insurance. Thing is I HAVE NEVER OWNED A CAR IN MY LIFE. I used to have an unlisted phone number, but I decided if I was going to get these spam calls anyhow what was the point of it being unlisted and dropped that.
I was later looking on ancestry and i got a leaf that lead me to something posted by a distant cousin. It was a pic of my great grandpa and his family that I had edited with all the people in it's names, and I put a frame on it. I did not mind the fact he used it. If I did not want it used I would not have given it to another cousin of mine to put on his site. What made me angry was this cousin I never met was claiming credit for the photo, that I worked so hard on to figure out who everyone was that was in it. The photo was taken around 1900, long before I was born.
So I finally got a little nap. Then when I got on line later a friend gave me a hard time about not calling to tell him the games were starting early, but in fairness he did apologize later. And to end a lousy day that was bad from start to finish I find out that the friend who I did not make time for in the morning went and vented to another friend about me not dropping what I was doing to listen to them.
Some people are so used to me helping when they need it, it becomes hard for them to understand I am only 1 person, and can not do everything for everything all the time at the same time. I told the friend what wanted to talk when I was working on the other friend's computer that I would get back with them in a bit. Unfortunately that did not happen, because when I tried I found this person had left a rather short and cold message to me and they were off line when I tried to get back with them.
This day was one that started at the bottom and dug a hole so it could get lower, and now instead of sleeping like a normal person would do at this time of night I am sitting here venting.

     I have been reading some of Nostradamus’ predictions that are claimed to have come true, but I contend that IF it does not happen exactly as predicted, it did not really come true.  EXAMPLE: It was written in the year 1999 in the seventh month, from the sky will come the great King of Terror.     People think this pertains to the attack on Sept 11, 2001. Nostradamus predicted July 1999, NOT Sept 11, 2001 so that is at least one prediction that was not true.     The people think was about Hitler could be a self fulfilling prophecy.   I am sure Hitler read many things in his life.   It is not too farfetched to think that maybe he read Nostradamus’s prophecy’s, and maybe he himself even thought that one was about him, so he worked to make it come true, because he believed it would and that it was about himself.   One may make a prediction come true, if they believe it will come true. They can take actions that will lead them in the direction of the prophecy they believe to be true, so it in turn does happen.       What brought me to write this blog was something I saw on TV.   It was about Nostradamus.  They think he predicted the end of the world due to an atomic war in 2030 something.     I would like to point out this is not the first prediction of the end of the world was supposed to happen with the end of the Mien calendar, but it did not happen we are still here.   It was also said to be ending on 2000, but that did not happen either.   Bottom line is: No one really knows when or even if the world end, and anyone who gets upset by something someone may or may not have predicted centuries ago is not only gullible, but they are also stupid.  We make our own future and the smallest ripple in the time stream can change EVERYTHING.

My sister told me today our first great grandson is moving to another state far away. I did not get to see him when he was growing up quite as much as I would have liked, because his parents were no longer together by the time he was born. The main times I got to spend time with him was holidays like Christmas, as he spent much of his time with his mother. Some times I would be out shopping and I would hear this little boy's voice ringing through the store. I would turn around and it was my great nephew. He would always have a hug for me. I am sure my sister-in-law would point me out to him when they were out, but that kind of a greeting from someone you love and do not see often makes one warm all over.
I know you have to let go, and let people live their own lives. It is like a poster I used to have on my wall when I was a teen said: " If you love something set it free, if it returns to you it is yours. If it doesn't it never was." So we will see if he and his g/f still come home for Christmas. I am so glad she is going with him. At least with them going together, he will not have to start over in a new place all alone. His g/f is a wonderful girl. I like her very much.
My nephew wanted to be a performer when he was a teen. I do not think he has totally given up that dream, but dreams do not pay the bills. My nephew is one of the few nephews and nieces I have who really understands me ?. Maybe that is why I will miss him so much. We can not live the lives of the younger generation for them. They must make their own way in this world , if they are to grow and be prosperous. Unfortunately that does not stop those they leave behind from missing them.
I do not know if it is because he was the first of his generation in my family, or if it is because he was so much more loving then all the others when he was a child, but I do not think I would miss many of the others as much as I will him. LOL he has a kid brother that I know for a fact I would not miss as much if it were he who was leaving. His brother is a constant agitator, he loves to pick at people, and that bugs me sometimes.
Part of me wants my nephew to be very happy and to do well in his choice of a new place to live. Part of me keeps thinking i wish they would change their minds and stay here with us, but I know only too well people have to go out into the world and see what they can achieve for themselves to really be happy in life.

I was sitting all alone the other day in my back yard, and my mind started to wonder. I then had some weird thoughts. People have speculated that covid 19 was man made, but I have a different thought. I do not think it was man made.
I have heard some think Earth its self is alive. Let's think about it . What if the Earth is alive, and to it we are THE VIRUS, and what IF all these things that have been happening lately is the Earth's way of trying to heal itself.
For centuries man has been drilling holes in it's crust ( it's skin ), like the flesh eating bacteria does ours. We have been drilling gas, and oil out of the Earth, upsetting the chemicals balance of the earth. We have made dams to change the natural water flow of the planet changing the way the Earth spins , and causes climate,, change,
WHAT If the earthquakes,volcanoes ,tsunamis , and even this pandemic are all part of a bigger plan? WHAT IF this is all part of the Earth trying to get rid of us just as we would a parasite that was making us ill like we are making the planet ill?

The first amendment says: “Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances.” I get so tired of people trying to dictate their point of view to others, especially when the person they are picking on was just exercising their right to free speech. Everyone has an opinion and it does not matter if someone else likes your opinion or not, you have the right to say it. Providing that is all you do say what you think. Words are just words, and they only have as much power as people allow them to have.
If someone say something to me or puts up a sign I do not like , I just shake my head and think to myself, I do not need to do anything about that karma will handle it if it is bad. The only thing you achieve by confronting someone about something they say or about a sign they put up is drawing more attention to what they say. If you ignore things you do not like that others say or put on a sign you take the power away from the statement.
Evelyn Beatrice Hall in 1906, said it best with the statement ( I disapprove of what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it. )
I do not know what has happened to our first amendment rights. Now a days people have the opinion that only what they say matters and anyone else's ideas should be shut up one way or another. It is like I told my sister one time when her daughters got into an argument and one of them hit the other one and drew blood. My sister tried to justify the actions of the one that caused the damage by saying the other one picks and does not shut up. I said did she hit her sister FIRST she said, no. I told her then it does not matter a bit what her sister SAID to her, it did not justify her hitting her sister and drawing blood.
People ESPECIALLY grown ups need to remember words can only hurt you if you allow them to. We have the ability to disregard any mean thing someone else says, as long as they only use their words.
Sorry I am a bit wound up myself by something I saw on yahoo. A shop keeper had a rather harsh sign in his store about transsexuals where he pointed out if they were born a man and they still have the part (a paraphrase) that makes them a man they are not a woman. I totally agree IF you think you were born wrong and you are a man that always thought he was a woman fine HAVE THE OPERATION to make it real. Once you have the sex change I will agree you are a woman, but like the store owner pointed out, you may IDENTIFY as a woman BUT if you still have the male sex organ you are NOT a woman yet. If you are a guy and you want to be a girl HAVE THE OPERATION or do not call yourself a woman.
I had a cousin who was a gay transvestite, and he even preformed as a woman. That was back in the late 1970's to early 1980's and he NEVER claimed he was a woman he was a man that wore woman's clothing. This thing of using the word TRANS to cover it all is silly.