This year has sucked. Next year has got to be better.  My favorite cousin died yesterday. My brother died in Aug.   Both my sister and my sister in law have had pancreatitis.   My other brother had a wreck with his tractor and trailer.   This has been the worst year my family has had in a decade.   So I figure next year has got to be better cause I can not imagine it being worse.

   My brothers death kinda messed me up for a while, but I am taking my cousins death better.   What sucks about her dying now is I spent the past several months painting a portrait of her mother that I had planned to give her as a Christmas present this year and she will never see it now.   If you think that sounds selfish I am sorry, but it is how I feel.   I do not know why my relatives tend to die in clusters .   One year we lost 8 people before the year was done it was in the 1960's

     I think the reason my brother's death hit me so hard was we were just starting to get close again after many decades of not really getting along, and now that is all gone.  I wish we could have had him 1 more Christmas, but it was not meant to be.