I have been told I am paranoid, but I say it is not paranoia if someone REALLY IS OUT TO GET YOU.   If you have someone running around telling other people things about you that they do not tell you to your face it is not paranoia.   I also have someone that thinks he can control everything I say and do and he is in for a big surprise.   There was only one person who could do that sense I became an adult and he is not him.   I got to love how this psychotic bitch that is out to get me has manipulated the men in our lives.   She plays them like a fiddle.   Wonder if the song would still be so sweet to their ears if they knew what I know about her.   I am just waiting to see what will happen if things settle back down so I can too nothing bad will happen, but if they do not my life and everyone around me will have life changing events happening.  

     When I am convicted and sentenced in the public eye without getting to defend myself of call any witnesses myself it does something to me.   I really do not think they know what they have done or what door to what dark room they have opened in my mind.   When you are loyal to someone and do the best you can for them at the expense of your own health and ask nothing in return the very least you should get back from them is some loyalty and gratitude.  

     Know what else makes me mad?   People who get in these little parenthood clicks.   They think if you do not have any children of your own you know nothing about children.   Apparently they have forgotten you used to be one and can still remember what hurt you when you were.    It is funny you need a license to drive a car, ride a motorcycle, hunt, fish, even your dog needs a license but you can be a parent without one.    Anyone with a hoping egg can be a mother.   Any guy that can park his baby maker can have a child, and the pool child has nothing to say about it.   Just because you have a child does not automatically make you a good parent, but way too often other parents think it does.   They will jump to the defense of another parent even if they know the children are not happy or well taken care of just because they have all had kids.

   Ok that is enough for now but I may be expanding on any of these subjects in the future.