I AM SO SICK OF THIS DOUBLE STANDARD BULL.   I say something people assume it is about them and I get reamed, but you let one of these dang men in my circle do something more damaging to the club and they get away with it.   The part that hurts the worst here is the one woman that could make a stand on the subject thinks it is ok.   Now how is it ok for me to get reprimanded for something that never mentioned anyone but myself and others to get away with what they have been saying.   I am so tired of this crap.   The girls do all the work and the guys have all the top positions.   Maybe it is time for me to do what the guys have been doing and sit on my hands and get drunk.  Is it any wonder I have been depressed for months?   Now I am sitting here crying over something that should not matter.   The day things stop mattering to me is the day EVERYONE BETTER WATCH THE HELL OUT.  That will be the day I start digging up bones.   Either that or I will just walk away from everyone and everything.   I have been thinking a lot about doing that lately.   I am starting to see it is not worth me making myself sick to try to appease people who do not give a care about my feelings.